A change has been coming, its been in the works for a while now. It started out as sort of a science experiment of sorts. Now, it has become a mantra, although a thing that I have to remind myself of from time to time when I forget. What is it, whats the change?
Yeah, thats right people, I belong. I fit in here. Where? Wherever. I matter. I do not get or find my worth in asking others for permission to go somewhere, participate in something. I just show up. And I expect to find something there, waiting for me. To teach me, to show me. I expect to hear and listen and see. I expect to be welcomed, and if I am not, I look for ways to make it happen. I have spent far too much of my life waiting around for others to make something happen. And whats worse, is I have blamed them. For leaving me out, not picking me, or worse picking me last and thinking that is somehow a measure of my worth.
Friends, this is officially the end my pity party of a live I have lived. Feel free to mark my words, remind me, and help me to remember.