Preface: this post is a part of an ongoing set of posts that is an email exchange between a friend and me. See here and here for previous posts and comments. I am intentionally not jumping into the conversation in the comments (just yet), but am glad to have my friend in the mix now, and I am deeply listening to what each of you has offered. Thank you SO much for lending your voice to the conversation.
I want you to know how long I have thought about your email–it seems not a day goes by that I don’t think about it. You have challenged me, provoked me—in a good way. Thank you—truly.
[editors note: it took me WEEKS to reply: life, dad’s passing, etc.]
I think you are right—saying nothing is/can be dangerous. But, so is saying something. Definitive statements draw circles, who is in, who is out. I just can’t be the one drawing those circles for the whole Body of Christ.
I don’t assume that the ones who say nothing are the same ones who are persecuting. I choose to believe they are either uncertain, or are working it out between them and their God. Either way I feel comitted to showing up in the way of Jesus as much as I can imagine and let God work the details out.
The other piece that I keep coming back to is that Solomon’s Porch needs to take a stand. Solomon’s Porch is not a one single voice—its a cacophony of voices, interested in a number of things, people, places and issues. I know there are things in the community that some care deeply about, that I frankly do not either agree with or care about. But, you bet I care about those people connected to those thoughts, ideas, and passions.
Lastly, I am tired of needing to be “that” voice every time. Sometimes, I just want to be Rachel, the kick ass hostess. I am tired of being an issue in every place I go in life. Perhaps that is being a crappy queer.
I so respect what you wrote, obviously I have wrestled with it for weeks. I am grateful for your words more than I can express in this short email. Much love.
My friend responded to this email, which I will post next. My reply to my friends email is still in process, and when I finish it I will post it here. As you may be able to tell, I have really enjoyed the conversation and in posting this I am coming clean about my wrestling with this idea/topic. For the last few years I have volunteered with an organization called Integrity USA. They are an advocacy organization dedicated to inclusion and equal rights of LGBT people in the Episcopal Church. I have recently resigned from my work with them, some of it (not all) due to my change in thinking/belief about advocacy, civil dialog, and about what living in the way of Jesus looks like for me. YOU are also helping me work this out. So, thank you. Truly.
to be continued …